“A New Birth – 9 Months Later”
“By his own choice he gave us a new birth by the message of the truth so that he would be the first fruits of his creatures.” James 1:18
When most people hear nine months, they think of babies, new births and the wonderful months that lead up to that birth. When I hear nine months I think of how nine months ago our world changed. More than just a change of not knowing to knowing or from living in denial of what I thought our marriage was to wishing I still was in denial. It was a change of the heart that began in both my husband and I. This change of heart began amidst the hurt, agony and disbelief. This change of heart began despite what was happening in our marriage and despite what had happened.
Our Lord promises us in his word that he will give us new birth and not just any new birth but specifically new birth by the message of the truth. I love what the HCSB notes say about this verse.
“Message of truth refers to the gospel by which new birth comes. First fruits refer to the best that the harvest produces. God gives us good gifts that yield wondrous fruit, not temptation that leads to death through wayward desires.” Praise him!
After that August 12th Sunday morning my husband and I found ourselves flat on our face before our heavenly father. We began (I don’t know how-I know this was a God thing) the next morning in the word and prayer together and have for the last 247 days (9 Months).
What if we had not fallen on our face before God together? What if we would have not went to the Truth (the Word) and prayer? Would we have encountered new birth? Would we have seen the hand of God begin to restore our dead and broken marriage?
August 5th, five days later God gave us Isaiah 43:18-19, we actually both wear this
verse on a leather bracelet every day. Here is what he said.
“Do not remember the past events (oh my …so hard), pay no attention to things of old. Look I’m about to do something new, even now it is coming. Do you not see it? Indeed I will make a way in the wilderness, rivers in the desert.”
When I read this verse now I shudder at the sheer magnificence and authoritative way God started working in our lives and marriage. He was telling us that morning that he was in control.
Does the Lord want to give you a new birth, a new life? I implore you to fall flat on your face, laying it all down and asking him to take control. It started that day and has been a process for us, but a journey that I’m so glad we are on. How sad it would be if we were still drawing away from each other and Christ.
1 Peter 1:3 says, “Praise the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ according to his great mercy, he has given us a new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead.”
We are guaranteed new life through Jesus Christ our Lord! We all are!
I’m praising hiss all day long for what he has done, is doing and will do in our marriage and for that matter anyone’s life that will totally surrender. Because of the cross my husband doesn’t have to live any longer with sexual addiction, my marriage didn’t have to continue on the road to destruction. Remember what 1 Peter 1:3 says, “…God gives us good gifts that yield wondrous fruit, not temptation that leads to death through wayward desires.” Hallelujah we are not chained to our addictions but have new life through the message and a new birth into living hope because of the cross!
Last thought for today:
I love the song “Restore” by Chris August, it has resonated with me in such a special way.
“…But right now if their being honest
They don’t know if they’ll stay together
Let’s fast forward to the future
After struggling on their own
They finally figured out they needed
Jesus in the middle
Now I’m watching God rebuild their home.
The enemy tries to come and divide
Trying to get us to give up the fight
But darkness will always lose out to light
Cause we’ve got the power of Christ on our side…”
Continued Journal Entries:
9-16-2012: Today I heard a story about a Ugandan woman named Mercy. I learned of how hard her life has been. I feel like the Lord is saying your life could be so much harder. My family is all alive and well, move forward with me child and truly live out the life I have for you. I feel like the Lord is saying to me that I’ve been trying to live as a Christian with no dialogue, no true relationship… sad thing is…he’s right.
9-17-2012: Today God gives us Colossians:13, 23-25, Here and in many places in the bible God talks about forgiving, just as forgave us…..THIS IS HARD! HELP! All over Ephesians, Mathew, Luke, Colossians it talks of this.
9-19-2012: I’ve come to an empty place…Wilderness within my soul. It does not satisfy me anymore…I have to follow after God’s own heart. It’s all been lip service, one day I want to be able to tell of his faithfulness. I’m now broken beyond recognition, we are not the same people, we are God’s not Satan’s.
9-21-2012: Today I have to leave town for work for the first time overnight since all this happen. Dear Lord please give me peace while gone.
9-24-2012: Today I’m better than yesterday and better than the day before only by the grace of my loving Jesus…he is truly my strength. Today is my birthday. Psalm 16:1,2,5,8
9-25-2012: I love being in bible study with my husband, however I look over often at times and get MAD…MAD at what he did…I can’t even begin to describe how I still feel a little over a month out now. I feel very alone sometimes. Psalm 23:4 really spoke to me today.
9-26-2012: I have been amazed at how close I have felt to my King but it comes from constant communication… something I’ve never had before. Philippians 4:19, There is only one hero…We all need to be rescued… His name is JESUS! There’s no perfect man or woman… We all have imperfections that we bring into our marriages. Genesis 2:20 and 3:7-15. Adam and eve were pulling away because of the sin that was in their life. It was affecting their marriage. WE are all sinful and self-centered. There is no perfect person. It’s something that we have to realize every day… It’s not just about my husband changing it’s about us both changing. I had built up so much resentment…yet I was so far from God myself. We had become roommates totally. I had pushed things under the rug for so long…that’s what the devil wanted… he wanted us to stop talking. I believe in his redemption, his renewal and his transformation. If we are connecting to God it will connect everywhere…I need to stop worrying about him and make sure my relationship with Christ is the first priority. Holiness is the goal for us together, that’s the purpose of our marriage now! Ephesians 5:22-32, this should provide freedom. Jesus designed marriage to make us more holy not happy.
9-28-2012: It’s hard for me to read John 8. To see the word adulterer. I am thankful though that God is a God of second chances. I love that he loves my husband and that he cares for our marriage. I love that we can lean on our heavenly father.